There’s a possibility
There’s a possibility
All that I had was all I gon’ get
There’s a possibility
There’s a possibility
All I gon’ get is gone with your step


So tell me when you hear my heart stop,
You’re the only one who knows
Tell me when you hear my silence
There’s a possibility
I wouldn’t know

Know that when you leave
Know that when you leave
By blood and by mean
You walk like a thief
By blood and by mean
I fall when you leave

So tell me when you hear my heart stop,
You’re the only one who knows
Tell me when you hear my silence
There’s a possibility
I wouldn’t know

Tell me when my sigh is over
You’re the reason why I’m close
Tell me if you hear me falling
There's a possibility
It wouldn’t show

By blood and by mean
I fall when you leave
By blood and by mean
I follow your lead


http://www.myspace.com/lykkeli

river flows in you.

you in flows river.



http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rhN7SG-H-3k


that song is amazing.
it's the only thing I can even write this while listening to.

I realized this is my bitch about Adam blog, and no one but... like Stotler has read it ahah.
I'm off of hiatus for a little bit.

This blog has become a record of some sorts, to maintain that he was real, and to make sure I remember everything that's caused me this pain.
Where we left off ? Right. She sold the ring, and then sent the money to him in Florida.
And guess who he began talking to again?


...
I was stupid, once more.
I keep ending up the stupid, tragic, dumb girl in this. And I will never judge another girl like me ever again for it. I've not earned the right to hypocrisy.
I broke Collin's heart.
Adam led me away from my path again... Everytime I'm so damn close to being happy again and being normal, he comes back, like some kind of sick disease. or maybe like herpes. or something. it's painful.
it's nauseating.
I'm sick as hell, taking my chemo, trying to forget him.
and there he is again.

and he's so easy to want
so easy to believe.
he told me he wanted to be with me.
that he would finish our story.





but I quit answering again.
I became stronger again.
I found a new distraction.
and this one i want to stay with.
he's amazing.
Alex is truly amazing, he is...

and Adam found someone else in Florida finally.
in a way, I'm very distraught. to hear that he's moved on. that he's okay.
but I'm very happy that finally, he's okay.
he's dating someone that isn't her... He is not with her anymore. She's not controlling him.
He's on his own road to recovery.
I deleted him from every form of communication, pretty much.
No more facebook, the easiest convention.
I'm going to learn to live now.
and he's learning....


it hurts like hell to be done.
it hurts like hell.
but hopefully, I'm closing this chapter for good.
this may be the end of the story.
it really may be.

I realize I haven't really been posting lately.
I'm dating someone new. I care for him, but he's probably not the one.

I haven't spoken a word to Adam in at least two months.
He's engaged to Alex now.
And that's how my story ends.
__________________________________________________________

Let's not forget ourselves, good friend.
I am flawed if I'm not free.
And your husband will never leave you,
He will never leave you for me.

another mixtape burned

it's times like these when i think you're not listening to me
i scream so loud but still you won't see.
crashing words and angry hands.

I still sing this for you.
Please press play on your tape deck.

It's times like this I don't think I exist.
Tug at your shirt, not even a kiss.
Crashing words, angry hands.


I still sing this for you.
Please press play on your tape deck.

Would it make it any better if I just get up and leave?
Would it make it any better? 'cause I'm just a dumb fucking kid with time to waste.


I still sing this for you.
Please press play on your tape deck.

needs moar added to it

A night spent handing you the keys and crawling in to bed
Keep the radio low, just try to clear your head
Just lead, I follow, just leave, I follow.
shaking hips, steady hands, pressing lips, no demands.

Pacing, stretching, still waiting
bedroom eyes, she's still baiting.
Roll over, just sleep, roll over, just sleep.
Can't shake you from my mind, it's you I have to keep.

fool me thrice, I'm messed up.

I'm sorry, but I've got to quit answering your calls.
I'm sorry, but you're not sorry at all.
Find another girl to carry your heartache and lack of spine.
I'm gone, you're too late, and yes I'm fine.
Words so empty, I don't believe you, don't believe in me.
This is a euphemism for getting what you deserve.
Find another girl to carry your heartache and lack of spine.
I'm gone, you're too late, and yes I'm fine.
Keep your roses, keep the thorns in the sides, I don't need another lie.
Keep your roses, keep the thorns in the sides, I don't need another lie.
Find another girl to carry your heartache and lack of spine.
I'm gone, you're too late, and yes I'm fine.
Find a girl to carry you, I'm gone, find a girl to carry you, you're wrong.

untitled.

nothing more, nothing less
a little betrayal, a little mess
away with her dignity for a moment of relief
falsehoods, no disbelief.

and gritting her teeth, the lies force themselves out
like the kiss on his lips and the taste in her mouth
she's purging again to rid herself of him
alone again, lights cut dim.

"And if I fall tomorrow, I'd still fall into your arms.
Like london's bridge is burning down. and, like the black
Sky falls around the moon,
It's true, I fall around you."

smoldering towards him once more
loving herself has proved such a chore
softly, hardly, hardly feeling at all
feeling no pain, feelings dissolve


"And if I fall tomorrow, I'd still fall into your arms.
Like london's bridge is burning down. and, like the black
Sky falls around the moon,
It's true, I fall around you."

"So, don't treat me like I'm your first;
another protege of something worse.
Say it once, say it again.
No lie can can make this one bend."

and, if I fall tomorrow, I'd still fall into your arms,
like london's bridge is burning down. but, like the black
sky falls around the moon,
it's true, I fall around you.
like the black sky falls around the moon, it's true, I die without you.